3:11pm
19th February 2012
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this sudden realisation of perpetual dishonesty and manipulation makes me wonder if decency is even a relevant attribute anymore. it’s like i have to re-live the past year and view it all in a different colour format because i had this certain outlook forced upon me and nothing was real and now i have to try and figure it all out but honest to god it’s like every possibility i had of trusting another human being has been stripped from me and despite feeling more peaceful than i have in a long time i am also so fucking spiteful and i have never hated someone this much. there are only a select few people that are re-enforcing my faith in humanity and i plan to appreciate those people every day but i don’t know i think it’s going to take me a while to be able to trust anyone even marginally again.
