February 2012
i want to shower and shave my legs and feel good but alternatively i don’t want to move from where i’m sitting.
oh ho ho this is going to be so interesting.
potential polish passport shit YES.
this sudden realisation of perpetual dishonesty and manipulation makes me wonder if decency is even a relevant attribute anymore. it’s like i have to re-live the past year and view it all in a different colour format because i had this certain outlook forced upon me and nothing was real and now i have to try and figure it all out but honest to god it’s like every possibility i had of...
this house that i’m in right now is where it all began. it’s where i was brought as a newborn and it is where i like to think i developed. despite moving too many times for me to recall, from share-houses with musicians and artists to sleep-outs in houses dressed in moon calendars and astrology books to proper home-sweet-home cottages with a backyard, this is still the closest thing i...
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we squirmed on an absent-minded mattress in an empty room; the sun would rise too soon. my lungs would swell as your head rests on my chest, listening intently to the panic i’d protest. damp, i’d be tender, feigning tender love and care naked and quivering, a passing hand through your hair. “you have honest eyes” you’d proclaim with a sigh, and whisper while dreaming,...
i feel like because it’s 4:00AM i should be writing or doing something marginally productive but the truth is that i am feeling down and would much rather bury myself in lots of pillows and sleep for years.
left-overthoughtsfromtypewriters:
a room; all lights out
masculine and inarticulate groans of lust
violent fingers; choking, choking, choking
ropes tied
racing heartbeat, flushing chest
door swings open
“oh my god! i’m not doing anything, mum! get out!”
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perhaps this misery will be the death of me.
in the past few weeks i feel as though i have been unusually content. it was this one minuscule encounter that tipped the whole scale and it’s like a friend of mine has allowed me to borrow his rose-tinted glasses and from that i am somewhat at peace. however social i have been, and however patient and considerate (in comparison), this one letter i received yesterday has near shattered said...
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i am back on tumblr for the first time in weeks!! (kind of, i was on on my phone but it doesn’t really count because i didn’t get the euphoric experience of watching the publish now symbol swirl and swirl and swirl).
mum and i went to the opening night of elektra last night, and as the first opera of the season i have to say it was beyond incredible and had me mesmerised for the whole...
January 2012
maybe it’s a bad thing that i’m beginning to find this whole situation fucking hilarious.
running through the sprinklers with keahn, then sitting in the rain and further getting wet on damp couches; thabo telling me repeatedly that i’m the coolest person whilst heinously drunk; drinking goon as haylee attempts to get me as drunk as she is; lying on mattresses and discussing film, music and feelings; having at least a semi-passed out keahn lying on my lap for a good hour or so;...
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the only thing more embarrassing than finding a mix CD you made when you were 10 and the first 2 songs being avril lavigne is when you realise you still know all the words and get overly emotional and sing along really loudly and question your entire existence because avril lavigne.
P.S. i am so close to being enrolled in university and it is kind of daunting and horrific because the campus is...
experiencing the sunrise at 5:30AM makes me realise how beautiful the world is. i watched the pink clouds drift across the sky and felt the cool wakening wind of the morning and listened to the leaves brush against one another and the birds sing in harmony and felt completely serene. i’m going to have to disagree with frost on this one. if the universe continues working how it is now, if the...
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everyone in the world should follow imogen and sarah. there are no two girls on tumblr that i find more inspiring, creative, courageous, amusing and beautiful than these two, and despite never having met either and neither knowing one another, i look up to them in 101 ways. their blogs collectively aren’t filled with fashion appreciation, flick-fringe boys or excessive party posts, but...
green apples and almonds green apples and almonds green apples and almonds.
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this is so familiar and horrible and i can feel everything inside me swelling and all i want to do is hug her but she’s going 100 miles an hour at the moment and i’m so far and she’s so far and i don’t even know her and she must be so scared ;(
don’t. drink. and. blog.
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i can feel all the care drain from inside me. like, i don’t care about this anymore. it’s no longer important.
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belgian emo is now my decision-making music.
p.s. on a slightly relevant note, everyone should listen/have listened to honeywell. “during a honeywell rehearsal, someone deviously suggested “hey josh, why not try screaming like a dying girl?” and that was the beginning of the honeywell sound most became familiar with.”
i now cannot decide what i want to do with my 2012. there are around 4 options that i need to consider and portishead is supposed to be helping me but it isn’t and i’m immensely disappointed and feel like chinese food.
considering my blog is perpetually based around my nightmares, i feel obliged to disclose the most recent 2. in the first i either watched or participated in the rape of a child, then proceeded to run half-naked out the front of my old primary school searching for someone who would take me home and bathe me and make me feel clean again. in the second, last night’s nightmare, i shot 7...
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nuh i’m going back to sleep.
zac: man, stand up comedians are really not as funny as me
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so a while ago i proposed a statement that neither good nor evil should be used as absolutes. i then stated that i would write out a post explaining why i thought this, but i got too busy with my intense social life (playing computer games from 1987) and forgot. obviously there are a lot of parts to each end of the good-evil spectrum that i’m not going to go into, because the specifics...
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busy, busy, busy
“life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forwards.” - søren kierkegaard
Anonymous asked: please point me towards these films
depressing, spanish, homoerotic films will be the downfall of me.